Today is the 19th July 2008 . Knew i haven't been updating, been real caught up with things . I feel so shag, lifeless, no strength, weak and so like a patient .

I guess 90% of the class should have chosen their electives by now . Well, for me, i haven't . I think choosing something that works alone . Group work only makes me slack be a free rider . Like now, IS, knew nothing, did nothing, and don't even know what am i gonna do . RWPS, only managed to start yesterday with Cindy's help .

THANKS, CINDY . =)

Next Monday's IS test, Thursday's Tax test . I'll chiong, with Shirley . =) . I need to find motivation . September ! That's it . I'll work hard and smart now, i'll force my way through this in a positive manner and i'll get my reward this September . 6 weeks of holiday starting from 30th August 2008 . I'll work again, earn more this time, no more spending, and i MUST get my lisence no matter what .

I wanna sleep, but i just can't sleep . I'm tired, really tired, but i can't sleep . For who can help me is not helping, who can't help ain't able and those who wanna help doesn't deserve to know about this sinful fact .

Sometimes i really hate myself . Why the hell can't i just do it, forget it, get it over and done with, and not get back to it . The more i think of it, the more i couldn't get myself outta it . But if i don't think of it, escaping doesn't solve the problem, 'cause i know, if i don't think of it now, i'll think of it later .

I won't cry in front of you, neither would i be sad in front of you . My tears are not supposed to be seen .

Save me .